Tough....

Life is getting tougher and tougher as the age is getting older and older. Career and family...which one to choose... I realize that we cant excel in both...either career or family.. one thing for sure...i am really exhausted trying very hard to cope up with both of them.

People used to tell me..,kids and babies light up our life and bring happiness to the family. No doubt that they are right...sometimes. But most of the time, life is full of frustration, anger, dissappointment and sadness.

Bosses demanding work to be done urgently, kids demanding for attention, baby demanding for time...i felt very exhausted trying to rush from one point to another. Whenever i try to put a little more attention on work , i do feel that i neglected the family. When i do spend more time with the family, i do feel that i dont pay attention to my work. Work crisis and family crisis happens every day and really add more colour to my exhausted life. Life is full of ups and downs and i do believe that i am really on my downs ...i think the only thing i really need now ....is a good shoulder to lean on , a pair of ears to listen and a pair of hands to guide me out from this darkness...

tough...tough...tough....

hmm...am i getting post pregnancy depression?...hmm...need to check with the doc soon as i am getting insomnia now....worried worried...